Ok, so how things have been going...
well the usual, anxiety, paranoia, sadness...but whatever, i'm making a consious decision to try and be socail and active, though it usually just makes me more depressed cause i feel unable to connect with people or enjoy things like i used to. I'm going to be going to therapy again with my old councelor Donna Clark.
I got a new kitty. My manager's son, Todd (cutest little guy, who i am too much like and have too much in common with for him being 14.) got her for me. She is young, but not a kitten which is good, i don't wanna deal with a kitten. She is all black except for a little white patch on her chest. I finally settled on a name. Ailinn, the Goddess of affection and love, because she is so friendly and affectionate. Last night i rolled over and found her snuggling against my back.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY COURTNEY!!!! (in two hours anyway)
My place is such a mess cause i've had no time to myself. Working 5 to 6 days a week, 9 hours a day, and sleeping 10 hours leaves little for doing anything.
Spring is almost here, i'm so happy for that, i can't wait.
I have been having very real and weird dreams and sleeps, i don't know what is real life and dream anymore. Last night's was scarry, some woman was chasing me and i couldn't hide from her, and no one would help and she kept stabbing me with knives. Oh and, lol, i also dreamed i met Ville Valo from HIM, weird cause it's not like i've been listening to HIM or thinking about them. Until today cause i dreamed about him last night.